63 Days

Messages left on the line between February 1st, 8am CST - February 3rd, 11pm CST.

I think the thing that brought me the most joy and warmth in the last 63 hours was hanging out with a friend that I’ve only known for like five months now. We hung out, we drank a little bit, we shared each other’s company and just caught up because we hadn’t seen each other in a couple of weeks and thinking about it now it’s really beautiful and sacred, this ability to create friendship, platonic friendship that strictly remains friendship and doesn’t blossom into anything more. Not that friendships need to blossom into anything more. Just feeling really grateful for her friendship and companionship and knowing that I didn’t know her a year ago or even six months ago, it’s nice to have community to fall back into.

My whole family got COVID and we’ve been just trying to recover from it and today was the first day where it felt good enough to get out of bed, really, and do something, more than just picking up a little and doing the dishes and playing for a quiet moment with my daughter and I’ve been washing all the laundry and doing all the things that need to be caught up with that we couldn’t do because we were so miserable and today I decided to play dress up. I love layering pattern and color and getting dresses every day and I haven’t been doing that obviously and when I’m sick, the first day back feeling good I’m always wanting to do that extra thing, you know, like curling my hair or putting on makeup which I don’t normally do and today I felt like playing dress up and so I’m throwing clothes all over the room and trying on new outfit recipes and it made me feel really good.